I haven’t written much of anything in 2022. I took some time off from writing because of how much my life has changed these last couple months. In December of last year, on my dad’s birthday to be exact, I found out that I’m pregnant. What a shock!!! These last two and a half months have been nothing short of shocking. I’ve learned so much in this very short time. I’m good when it comes to all things labor and delivery, but pregnancy itself is a completely different beast and I did not have the best first trimester. I was sick all day everyday and needing to use multiple medication combinations to get through daily life. It was not fun. As of today, I’m 16 weeks and I feel so much better.
I started feeling better about a week ago. I still have moments where I feel a little nauseous, but for the most part I’ve considered those foods or situations triggers for me and I avoid them. The only one I can’t really avoid is driving. Driving/riding long distances makes me extremely nauseous, so I just have to make sure I take my meds about 30 minutes beforehand and I’m usually good to go. I’ve had some typical food aversions and some weird ones. For a while the thought of a taco made me wanna vomit instantly, tuna sucks, and I can’t even crack an egg without wanting to vomit. My family thinks that’s hilarious, but I don’t. Saturday my sister, nephew, and I visited my parents and my mom cooked breakfast and I actually had to leave the room while my mom scrambled the eggs 😂. It was not fun. It seems like my kiddo has finally come around to the taste of sweets, but for a while anything sweet make me sick to my stomach and everything I ate needed to be salty and savory. Trying to figure this kid out has been an adventure to say the least.
Like I said, finding out I was pregnant was very much a shock. If I can be completely honest, I was not excited at all. For a while it seemed as though everyone around me was way more excited than I was. It has take me a while to come around to the reality of all that is happening right now. Thankfully, I’ve had the support of my parents, my sister and brother-in-law, and the rest of my family. They’ve been amazing. My child’s father, who will from here on out be referred to as M, has also been great. It was quite a surprise for him too, but he’s been nothing short of supportive from the beginning. He also was a lot more excited than I was which was surprising to say the least.
We haven’t really been shouting that we’re pregnant from the rooftops; we’ve essentially chosen to tell those who were closest to us. I’ve always been a relatively private person, and that didn’t change when I found out I was pregnant. If anything, I feel like my guard has gone up even more. The more people you tell, the more you open yourself up to peoples’ opinions and their unsolicited advice and I’m just not interested. I opted out of doing a gender reveal because I don’t really see the point; I have no desire to cut into a colored cake or be surprised with blues or pinks coming from somewhere. It’s cute for other people but it’s just not my style. I prefer to be a bit more low key. I’m not even sure I want to have a baby shower which is like taboo in my family.
I do want to get back into the habit of writing and my plan is to update you guys weekly. I also think it’d be nice to have something to look back on as I continue on this journey to motherhood. That sounds so cliche lol. So far baby is healthy and growing and has a nice strong heartbeat. All of his or her limbs are there and measuring normal sizes. He or she seems to have a nose like their father. They also seem a tad dramatic according to my most recent sonogram pictures. Originally I wanted to wait to find out if it’s a boy or girl until the day I deliver, but lately I’ve been getting the itch to know – mostly because I just want to buy things. One of my aunts has already started buying things for a little girl which is what I felt like I was having, but lately I’ve been thinking it’s a boy. My sister also thinks it’s a boy; my mom thinks it’s a girl and my dad wants it to be a boy. M and I are happy either way of course, but it will be very interesting to see who will be right in the end. Anxiously but patiently awaiting August for this little one’s arrival. Until next time friends…
Xoxo,
Ash, RN