I’ve officially been a mom for 48 hours, and let me tell you…
It’s been absolutely amazing. I welcomed my little boy into this world on the 16th. He’s the most perfect little 8 lb ball of baby I’ve ever seen in my life. He’s adorable and I know I’m biased because I’m his mother, but he really is.
I’ve tried my hardest to keep it real with you guys since I found out I was pregnant, and I intend to do the same thing as I walk this journey of single motherhood. My first 48 hours have been a whirlwind of emotions for me. I believe they’re like that for every mom after having a baby because of the major hormone surges and shifts. It’s an experience for sure.
First of all, everyone is right – you will not sleep. However, not sleeping while pregnant is completely different from not sleeping with a newborn. I can’t exactly say one is worse than the other. They both have their own complications. I think I’ve slept maybe 8 hours total in the last 48 hours. I’m exhausted and my body is definitely feeling it. And while we’re on the subject of my body – it feels like I just ran a marathon or spent 2 days in the gym with no breaks. My thighs, butt, and ab muscles are all sore and my lower back hurts. For the past 24 hours I’ve felt like I could eat everything in sight which is so different from pregnancy where I could hardly eat anything. I’m thirsty all the time. It’s just so interesting to me how quickly things change. I can pee like a normal human again and I don’t have to go every 15 minutes. My belly is mine again. My mind is in a complete fog. I can’t think straight and sometimes my sentences really don’t make any sense whatsoever. I have cried a lot in the last 24 of the 48 hours. It’s very unlike me.
Eventually I’ll share my birth story with you guys, but I need some time to get settled in with my little guy first. I think it’s an interesting story considering I’m a labor and delivery nurse. I had to share it with some of my nurse friends because some parts were just too weird to be true. My little guy is sleeping right now as I write this and I wanna take the opportunity to sleep as well, so I’m going to finish this out. You guys have a great day.
Xoxo,
Ash, RN